Saturday, September 12, 2009
I haven't exactly been motivated lately, so I'm hoping that this will really help me get back into the swing of things full-on. It's not as easy to eat chocolate chip cookies when just walking to the cupboard makes you nearly fall over!
Monday, August 24, 2009
I also haven't done anything good since then. Didn't eat well, didn't exercise.
That's right, no Shredding at all last week. Or gym. Or anything. So much for Shredding every day.
I missed Days 11-18 of the 21 Day Challenge. I pretty much just need to start over. And I did so good the first bit.
And not today either because, well, it's my one day a month that I never make myself do anything... ya know, Sisters? Is this day as big a deal to the rest of the female population or is it just bad because mine have always been bad?
I could list all the food confessions - but it would just make you crave bad stuff, so I won't. But the birthday cake is finally gone.
Tomorrow is my sisters birthday and I'm hosting her party at my house. And making cake. But I'll make her take the leftovers back to her house to fatten up her house mates instead of me.
Monday, August 17, 2009
My birthday is Wednesday and I plan on eating cake ... and plenty of it.
I am doing well on my 21 Day Challenge to have a good attitude about exercise, but I did miss a day last week. Bummer!
I feel guilty about wanting to blow off dieting on my birthday. I want to WANT to eat well. But my desire to eat crap still wins sometimes.
I have big plans for Shredding every day this week. I am ready to be ... even just as skinny as I was before my miscarriage.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Last night hubby and I had pizza on our Friday Night Date. Today I am going to be pretty good. It's just a normal day around here really since my hubby is working. Tomorrow, Sunday, is a family birthday party for me. So I'm not cooking and I AM celebrating. I'll eat whatever my MIL makes and I'll eat cake. But first thing Monday morning, Jillian will be Shredding me again.
Maybe planning your diet "failures" is the way to go. This way I don't feel like I "failed" on my "diet" I feel like I made choices about what is worth skipping and what is worth enjoying. What do you think?
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I'm doing really well on eating lately, too. Breakfast has never been a problem for me (my kids eat Cheerios, so I do too). For lunch I've been having a filling salad (broccoli, cheese, turkey, Romaine, carrots, etc) or a yogurt with high-protein granola, sometimes a Turkey wrap. Smoothies or Jell-O for an afternoon snack. And dinner I don't stress about too much either. I try to feed my family healthy foods anyway and when it's something ... well, like pizza... I just don't eat very much of that and have some more salad to fill up. I'm feeling pretty good.
Tonight is my bookclub and I have to find something healthy to bring to it... maybe I should Tweet for suggestions.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
My body has gone back to looking pretty lumpy. That last challenge was a total loss for me. I lost a whopping 1 pound somewhere in there, but it didn't last. I have a new perspective now. My goal is to change my attitude. Then behavior will come naturally after that. (Or so I hope) I don't want to look at my exercise as a "chore" each day. I want to look forward to it and crave it.
The Sisterhood is doing a new challenge. A 21 Day Challenge. You see, it takes 21 days to start a new habit. So the habit I'm working on forming is my good attitude. Today is Day One for me even though The Sisterhood started a few days ago. I'm not going to watch the scale as closely as I did in the previous challenge. I'm focusing on the habit - not the outcome. I mean, not that I'm not hoping for some serious "outcome", but that's just not my daily focus.
Here we go again, people.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Honestly, I deserve for that number to be much higher. I didn't do well this week until Monday. But on Monday I kicked it into seriously high gear and worked myself until I could hardly walk or sit up. Rolling over in bed is painful because my stomach muscles are like mush. My legs feel like they're going to give out on me every time I stand up. But it's such a good kind of pain. It's so good to feel that tired!
Last Week's Goals:
Go to the gym 3 times - Definitely did NOT do this. In fact, I didn't go a single time. I need to amend this goal to include home workouts since I've been doing that more often lately.
Do 100 sit-ups in one evening - Did it! I got home at 9:45 last night and really didn't want to, but I did it. It took me until 11, but I did it!
Don't over-do the eating on the holiday weekend. - Definitely failed on this one. Nuff said.
This Week's Goals:
4 Serious workouts (home or gym)
Try jumping rope again
Loose weight!!!!! Use that simple equation of calories in, calories out.
I'm still feeling pretty frustrated that in six weeks of being pretty serious about weight-loss I haven't gotten very far. But at this point, that frustration is only driving me to work harder. I'll beat my body at this game if it's the last thing I do!!!!
Monday, July 6, 2009
Anyway, it was bad. But this is a new day. And today I've got my will power back in control and I've got my "hard workin' Mama" hat back on. The past is the past. Or, as they say in Kung Fu Panda:
Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That's why they call it the present!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
I'm thrilled about the loss. I worked hard this week and actually accomplished all my goals (more about that later). I really am happy. But at the same time, in the back of my head, there is a nagging depression because I've only lost 1 pound in 5 weeks. Really? ONE pound in FIVE weeks! That's not good! But I'll try to not dwell on that. I'll accept the positive (the loss) and ignore the negative. I'll try to see this as the beginning of my body making the changes it needs to in order to loose weight.
Last Weeks Goals:
Go to the gym 3 times - I did it! I finally went to the gym 3 times this week, and look! A loss!
Minimize carbs - I did great on this. I didn't eliminate carbs. I just tried to be aware of places that I could easily cut them some.
Healthy snacking only during the day, with a tiny treat at night - I can only think of one time that I splurged this past week. And I'm OK with one tiny (candy bar) splurge. A girl's gotta live it up sometimes, right!?!
Don't loose momentum!!! - I totally did this one, too. It wasn't easy, but I do feel like I kept my momentum up this week.
I feel very, very good about how I did on all my goals. Yeah!
This Weeks Goals:
Go to the gym 3 times (which is going to be very, very hard considering my schedule)
Do 100 sit-ups in one evening (I tried to do this last night and could only get to 50 before pooping out)
Don't over-do the eating on the holiday weekend.
No overly lofty goals this week. I leave tomorrow for a camping trip with a bunch of teenage girls and I am a chaperon. I won't be in control of what I eat there. And then as soon as I get back it's the 4th of July and we have big family plans for that day. Most of my goal-accomplishing will be done at the start of next week. But that's what this is all about, right? Learning to change my lifestyle so that being healthy can be a part of it. Not just changing my daily routine for a couple of weeks to drop a few pounds.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
I feel very good about having accomplished that goal that I've been shooting for for more than 4 weeks now. I hope that having done it once will make it easier to do it again.
No matter what the scale says for my weigh in tomorrow, I'll feel good about it because I'll know I worked hard.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Below is me in January of this year at one of my best points. Sure, I'm more covered up, but you can see that I have a chin. My legs are slimmer. I look more fit. In fact, I AM more fit!
I was working hard at this point to loose weight. And I was having success. I felt so good when I got dressed in the morning. People who know me noticed and complimented me. I'm not just seeking compliments, but it was nice to have my hard work validated by their compliments.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Well, after my hiatus last week/weekend, things aren't so pretty. The good news is that I've lost 3 pounds in 3 days, but the bad news is that still leaves me up .8 from last week. Today I'm at 157.6.
Last weeks goals:
I didn't go to the gym 3 times - but I did go Monday, and yesterday and today I worked out at home (post-hiatus).
I definitely didn't eat minimal snacks. I snacked my toosh off (or should I say ON?). But, I've done really really well the last 3 days.
I didn't exactly minimize my carbs, but I did become more aware of how carbaholic I am.
This Weeks Goals:
Go to the gym 3 times (I know this has been my goal for 3 weeks now and I have yet to do it, but I am seriously determined right now. I'm SURE I can do it this time!)
Healthy snacking only during the day, with a tiny treat at night
Don't loose momentum!!!
I really regret having fallen so far off the wagon last week. It was silly and petty. No more of that nonsense from me!
Monday, June 22, 2009
But maybe it was good. I was discouraged and only kinda half doing it the few days before my hiatus. Now, after my hiatus, I am invigorated. I am fully ready to jump back in with both feet.
Today I exercised basically all day. I went to the gym in the morning - and worked harder and longer than I have in a while. I did sit-ups and leg lifts and such while watching my afternoon mindless-television. And this evening the kids wanted to play outside so I ran circles around the cul-de-sac while they played. I am exhausted. But I feel great! Really, really great!
I also ate really well today. No splurges at all, despite the fact that there are 3 different delectable treats in my house leftover from Father's Day (I won't tell you what they are so that you don't start craving them). I am going to have a treat this evening. Just a small one. I think treats are important for me. If I totally cut myself off from all treats I just end up binging.
So, like I said, I jumped in with both feet. Now, if I can just stay in, I'll be fine! I gotta start pulling my weight on Team Lime!!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
I'm getting kind of tired of this. The reward for my hard work it supposed to be the satisfaction of seeing the scale go down and my muscles go up. I am seeing some of the muscles going up, but none of the scale going down. It's very, very frustrating.
This past week I did not overindulge or over-eat or over-anything! I went to the gym twice for good, long workouts and worked out at home for at least 20 minutes twice also. I didn't snack in the afternoon. I didn't snack in the evening. Basically, I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT! So why no loss?
Ugh. Whine fest. Sorry. I took the day off today - I didn't go to the gym, I ate what I wanted, etc. But I suppose tomorrow I'll get up and be good again. *sigh* I'm just not feeling very into it right now.
Last Weeks Goals:
I did NOT do the jump rope thing. Sorry. I just couldn't muster the desire after sucking at it so much.
I did NOT go to the gym 3 times. But I did go twice and get at least 2 home-workouts in.
I DID eat minimal snacks each day.
This Weeks Goals:
Go to the gym 3 times.
Eat minimal snacks (after today - I'm not counting today)
Minimize my carbs
I wonder if my carb-loving habits are the cause of some of this weight trouble. So this week I am going to work on that. Not that I'm going to cut them out or anything drastic like that. I'll just watch them and not over-do it.
Sorry for the whiney post. Really. Today was a bad day. But I'm sure tomorrow will be better. I pray tomorrow will be better. I can't quit say that I'm sure tomorrow will be better, but I'm pretty confidant it will.
Oh, and GO TEAM LIME!!!
Friday, June 12, 2009
Today is a pretty busy day, too. But I'm off to the gym first thing this morning so that I can't possibly miss out on it. And I'll get back to the jump roping tonight. I'm determined not to give up on it since I sucked at it so much. I will master that dang thing!
What to do at the gym today? ... I'm thinking elliptical and weights. It's been a while since I did some good weight lifting.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Speaking of the jump rope, man do I suck at it. I tried to jump rope for just 10 minutes last night and totally failed. I can't jump more than 10 times or so without tripping on the rope! I've never felt so clumsy in my life! But I'll try again tonight ... and tomorrow ... and the next day. And hopefully by the end of a week I won't suck as much!
So my goals for the week are:
to jump rope for 10 minutes every day
go to the gym 3 times (already went once!)
eat minimal snacks every day
The snacking thing is tough since my body still is recovering from being pregnant. It still wants snacks pretty often. But I'll just try to have them be healthy, diet-neutral snacks.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
I had to bribe my children to get them to go to Target with me this morning. I told them they could pick out any treat while we were there. I was hoping I could steer them toward something that I don't really like that much so that I wouldn't be tempted by the goodies. But it didn't quite work out as I planned. We came home with powdered donuts. I am not dying for a donut, but if they're in the house I'm gonna have a hard time not eating them. During naptime, when all the world (or at least my house) is quiet for a few precious minutes, it's hard to not indulge. I've worked hard that morning. Don't I deserve a donut if it will make me feel better? Those donuts will call to me.
But I won't hear. Because I'll be too busy doing situps and lifting hand weights. And after naptime, it's off to the gym for us. Where I will think of those donuts being smashed to death on the tread of the treadmill with each of my steps.
Don't get me wrong, I'm all about enjoying the things that I love. I refuse to think of never eating a cookie again. I'll just not eat a dozen cookies. But donuts...I don't love donuts. So why waste my fat/calorie intake for the day on them?
I currently weight 156.8. (That's right - I'm putting it out there for you to see.) My overall goal is to get back down to 130 (where I haven't been since my first baby was born, 5 years ago). But I'll be very, very happy if I can get down to 145 before I get pregnant again.
I want to feel good about my body again. I want to run after my children and not be exhausted. I want to feel the sense of accomplishment that comes with working hard and seeing results.
Two weeks ago I was 10 weeks pregnant. I hadn't really exercised during those 10 weeks because of morning sickness. Then I miscarried. So getting back even to what I was 10 weeks ago is going to be hard (and slightly frustrating). I was at 152 before I got pregnant this last time.
I have three kids under 5. They are a bit of a ...shall we say, trial... in my weight loss journey. They suck away my energy, insist on snacking several times a day, beg for french fries and cookies, and take up a huge chunk of my time. But they also love to go play at the gym. So, some days they motivate me.
I actually really hate exercising. My body doesn't react to heat well and I tend to get close to fainting when working out. I have to be very careful about drinking almost nonstop as I exercise to prevent the fainting.
Well, this blog, of course.
I also belong to The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans, which is a great support network.
And my trusty gym membership.
If you want to know more about me personally, check out my family blog at worthfamily.blogspot.com